I talked about Cowboy in my letter to Peter here.
I've never really been one to have a security blanket, but I love having my mini Cowboy to snuggle with at night when I go to sleep. The white minky backing is so soft and comforting.
During the day I am usually fine and don't stop to think about our loss, and just go on with life. But when the day is done, the house is quiet, and I lay in bed trying to go to sleep and holding the blanket, my mind inevitably starts to think about Peter. It is a strong reminder of his death- as he is buried with it's twin.
Those nights have been some of my saddest moments as the blanket reminds me of Peter- and I lay in the dark. It is good to have that quiet time to just think and remember. I don't like to cry and be sad generally, but it is good to grieve and have a few moments to yourself to do so.
I am so glad I have this small reminder and token that I can hold to think of Peter.
|Peter enjoying the original Cowboy|
|Double snuggled in blankets|
|Peter spending his last night with Dad- snuggling|
|My mini Cowboy|
|The swirled minky back|
|Mini Cowboy in it's proper place- beside my pillow in the body pillow nest|